I saw a post on this blog encouraging people to report on how they are doing with their OLW (One Little Word). Mine this year is "Unafraid." How am I doing with it? I have good days and bad days. There are days when I really am unafraid, trusting, living in the moment. There are other days when I dwell on the goodbyes to be said at the end of the summer, all that could go wrong, how we will all adjust next year with my daughter gone, in college, and how she will adjust. Who will she be, living without us in a different country? (How exciting/terrifying to think about!) Who will I be without her? (Not as high a percentage of exciting in that one.)
I've written on this blog before about how I actually worry less since the earthquake than I used to. This transition so far has been more about grief than worry or fear. But there is, I confess, a certain amount of fear of the unknown. It has helped me to focus on this word, and on the kind of person I want to be, that completely unafraid person who is now mostly a figment of my imagination, but who may become more of a reality as I go along.
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