This week, my total number of cycling miles since I joined Strava in April clicked over to 1000. (Strava is an app to keep track of athletic activity.) A thousand miles, mostly on a tandem (the one in the picture, from summer days in Kentucky, or the one in Paraguay), but some on a single bike.
The poem I'm sharing today is really a song, written by one of my favorites, Nichole Nordeman. It's about miles. (Scroll past the video to read the words.) As I listen to this song, I think about the miles from this year so far. Some were fun and exhilarating, coasting or even pedaling all out downhill, going out-of-control fast. Some were painful, endless climbs, in the lowest gear. I even fell off my single bike a couple of times, once landing hard enough that I had to replace my helmet. (Always wear a helmet, kids.) There were a bunch of literal miles, and it's also, of course, a metaphor for all that I can't go into. You have your own miles; you know what I mean.
Every Mile Mattered
by Nichole Nordeman
Spread the map on the table
With the coffee stain
Put your finger on the places
Show me where you've been
Is that California
Where your teardrops dried?
You drew a circle around Georgia.
Can you tell me why?
I see should have beens, could have beens
Written all over your face,
Wrong turns and bridges burned,
Things you want to change
It's history
You can't rewrite it
You're not meant to be
Trapped inside it
Every tear brought you here
Every sorrow gathered
It's history
But every mile mattered
Get the box off the top shelf
With the black and white
Snapshots of your old self
In a better light
Ghosts and regrets back again
I can see it in your eyes
Send them home, let 'em go
Don't you think it's time?
It's history
You can't rewrite it
You're not meant to be
Trapped inside it
Every tear brought you here
Every sorrow gathered
It's history
Every road and every bend
Every bruise and bitter end
All you squandered, all you spent
It mattered, it mattered
Mercy always finds a way
To wrap your blisters up in grace
Every highway you'd erase
It mattered, it mattered
But it's history
It don't define ya
You're free to leave
It all behind ya
Every tear brought you here
Every sorrow gathered
It's history
Every mile mattered
Every mile mattered
I shared this song once before, in 2018, with some thoughts.